10 years ago I sat alone on my couch with a horrid sense of dread, staring at the blasts of “Shock and Awe” as the United States led the invasion into Iraq. I had not spoken with my husband in almost two months. His letters, written hastily on recycled rations boxes, were worn from my constant touch. Knowing he was moving from Kuwait into Iraq made my mind reel. I had no idea what war would mean, but I did know my life as a Marine spouse would shift radically.
A decade later, I sit wiser, if perhaps slightly more jaded, on that same worn couch (moved through 8 houses since).
I now know what it means to have a loved one fight in a war (two, in fact). I’ve watched countless men, and some women, gear-in-hand step onto gleaming white buses to start the journey to foreign lands, their eyes wide or weary depending on experience. I’ve held the hands of wives and mothers, brothers and children who were so afraid they couldn’t speak the words for fear the worst would come true. I’ve seen babies born to fathers they would never know. I’ve seen marriages crumble, kids lash out at returning parents, and mothers fall to their knees over caskets draped in the American flag.
Lost lives, lost limbs, lost love.
Sometimes the pain of the people around me is almost more than I can bear.
But I have also seen beauty as Marines reunite with their families, young men and women strive to bring the hope of America to small children overseas, and families draw together to support one another. The sheer depth of character, resilience and faithfulness to the cause and to one another is breathtaking.
I am no longer shocked; now I firmly stand in Awe.
Unfortunately, what I see today is a great divide. Those Americans who have suffered most from the effects of our country’s involvement in two wars are separated in numerous ways from the majority of her citizens. Despite Oprah’s attempt to support the military by gifting high-end Favorite Things to select spouses on her holiday show, or Michele Obama bringing visibility to the need for post-military jobs through Joining Forces, many Americans don’t quite know what to do with military families. We are an enigma. We make them feel awkward and uncomfortable. Maybe we hit on “there but for the grace of God go I.” Or maybe they simply aren’t sure what one person can do.
So I have a few suggestions:
1. Remember, it’s not over. There are still 68,000 troops in harm’s way. I am often flabbergasted that mainstream media chooses to cover Justin Beiber’s lack of a shirt in public while virtually ignoring the military men and women who are still fighting daily. And now, many are doing so while worrying about how sequestration and other political problems are affecting their families back home. Not an easy burden to bear when you think your country has forgotten about you. So try to stay educated and engaged. A cursory glance at the official Department of Defense website will give you a broad brushstroke without much political hype. http://www.defense.gov/
2. Actively seek military families. I guarantee we are out there. We are your neighbor, the gentleman who opened the door at the grocery, the mom with the haggard face at the airport trying to wrangle two crying kids. If you suspect but you aren’t sure, ask. I do this a lot, and when I’ve been wrong, I’ve never had anyone become offended. Then once you know…
3. Acknowledge the sacrifices we’ve made. Please do not say “I could never do what you do.” That simply is not true. If you had to, you would. And you have. You have made sacrifices for someone you loved. You have believed in a cause. You have seen people you cared for die. Military families do all this within a broader scope, but you understand the fundamental principles behind it. And we appreciate it when you take the time to tell us whole-heartedly and authentically that you understand our service and sacrifice. My husband stands there flustered and a bit abashed because he’s not one for praise. But in his heart he is glad that someone noticed that the military is comprised of individuals. And I am always appreciative when someone recognizes my efforts as well.
I’m even more appreciative when someone treats us as normal. I cherish the non- military friends who have hung in there through moves and deployments. They have helped my husband reintegrate at the neighborhood barbecue when he was still on high alert, having patience when his language was still a little rough and understanding why we weren’t interested at the moment in fireworks. Dear Ones made sure I had mom’s-night-out while my husband was gone or invited me to dinner with the usual couples even though I was by myself. Daddies played with my kids at school for Father’s Day while their own was away. These lovely souls have loved and supported us in all aspects of our lives both military and non.
Today, my husband is home attending a military school, our two kids are thriving, and I run a successful business. But the ghosts of all that has happened in the past decade reside with us. And we’ve been fortunate not to suffer from severe post traumatic stress, traumatic brain injury, or a dozen other things that would make life so much more challenging. But military life is hard. Even when my husband is not deployed he is often away training, or we are in the process of a move, or we are struggling to help our young children deal with the complexities of constant change and uncertainty. A little kindness and understanding from you, today, in the place we currently call home…that just might make all the difference.
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Such a great article, brought tears to my eyes and love to my heart! I remember this day 10 years ago and am proud to have walked this journey with my Marine & amazing women like you! Love you!
Megan — I will never forget those first two back to back deployments and the way we learned to support one another when the whole battalion left. There’s nothing like building a life-raft while you careen down the river.
Well said Ashley! Being the wife of a Naval Officer and the mother of a Marine Officer, I know what families endure day to day, year in and year out. God bless all Military families and their loved ones who go into harm’s way. No doubt about it, the entire families serves and they all should be thanked as often as possible.
Beautifully written Ashley ! Don’t forget that you deserve a lot of the credit for people treating your family “normally”. Some military families choose to remain sequestered on base rather than integrating themselves into their adopted communities. While I understand their reasoning, its a missed opportunity for both sides. Despite the many unknowns in your lives, you jump into a new community (or back into an old community) with both feet. One of the many things I love about you, my friend :-).
You, speaking from your heart to the heart of your people? Magic + love + perfect. When is your book coming out? 😉
What a beautiful and powerful article. So eloquently written! Love this and love you. Thank you and Seth for all you do!
(I told you the time would be right.)
Beautiful, touching, amazing and truthful. Thank you Ashley for opening my eyes and heart.
Debi – thank you for sharing. That is the best response I could possible hope for.
Beautifully written and eloquently expressed, as always!
Thank you, Kristy. And thank you to you and your family who share the same military journey.
Beautifully written and very moving. Thank you. I will no longer be hesitant to thank a member of our military in public when I see him or her.
Denise — knowing this warms my heart as it is the reason I felt moved to write in the first place. Thank you so much for sharing your comment.
Ashley, I’ve known your dad for over thirty-five years and when he sent me your article I could feel his sense of pride for all that you and Seth have endured over these past years. It was indeed a beautiful article and I can only wish the best for you and Seth and hope that he will always return safely home to you and your children.
Woody – thank you very much for your kinds words. I am glad that you and my father have stayed in touch.
Beautiful. Clear. Heart and soul. Thank you Ashley for all you bring to the world. Thank you for the eloquent reminder. Thank you to you and your family for your service.
Melani — your words mean so much to me.
What a wonderful article! You are amazing!
Anita
Ashley, Thank you so very much for how you so elegantly expressed the thoughts and concerns of military families. Please extend my heart felt thanks to your husband for his service and my thanks to you too for remaining true to the man you love.
Thank you for you and your husband’s service – as a new Airforceman’s mom-in-law I’m sure I will experience part of what you have shared…. Beautifully put – gratefully accepted. God Bless.
Heidi – loving someone who chooses to service presents so many challenges. But I promise the love itself overcomes those.
Thank you. I’m an Army wife. My husband has been in Afghanistan for the past 9 months; R&R leave will begin in about 7 days!
Every member of a military family serves; that’s something many people don’t get.
Glad – The R&R leave is hard in and of itself because it is short and you know they have to go back. But I hope that you both enjoy time together and I am sure you will make magical moments that can pull you the rest of the way through. Thank you to your family for your service
Ashley, I’m so glad you told me about your blog, and more specifically this particular post… it’s beautful, poignant, and dead-on!! You have put into words that which most of us feel in our hearts… which is a daunting task, given the varied personalities we are surrounded by in the Marine (or simply military) community… but I think that points to the fact that no matter how different we all are on the outside, we are cut from the same cloth and ultimately share a heart. Thank you for bringing our thoughts to words and getting us one step closer to our civilian counterparts :)… great post!!
Ashley, your dad and I have been close friends since college days; and of course, he and your mom, whom you resemble so very much, have always been so very proud of you. I am so glad that your dad sent this blog to me. It is very touching and something that everyone should read. My prayers will be with you and Seth as you continue your journey together.
Dearest Ashley,
Love your article, so very well written (-; We love you and your family and so very much appreciate what you guys sacrifice for Seth to be a warrior and to protect our country and all us by doing so (-; and for what every serviceperson and their families sacrifice for us. I do feel that anyone that goes into harms way.. a Policeman, a Fireman, or someone that really helps other people,, a intensive care nurse, a paramedic that has to go to all of the car wrecks and see things some of us will never have to .. these people go the extra mile for us all. and for me, I very, very much appreciate it (-; love and hugs to you all, Shari
xoxo to you and Seth and your girls.
Ashley, I am so deeply grateful for the friendship that you, Julie, Seth, Brandon, & our 4 girls have forged. There are countless americans who are humbled & honored by your service!
” Thank you, thank you, thank God for you, the wind beneath our wings.”
Beautifully said. Many thanks for sharing! I’m sharing this too.
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